Sunday, 15 January 2012

Tomorrow I will Rise

Tomorrow I will rise and a new day will dawn
Tomorrow I will rise and take more steps
Tomorrow I will rise  and count my many blessings
Tomorrow I will rise  and watch the birds fly high
Tomorrow I will rise and start my next adventure
Tomorrow I will rise  and sing to myself
Tomorrow I will!
But tonight I will snuggle deep and dream of the amazing life I have yet to live
Sweet dreams

14 January 2012
© Christine Rose Linacre



Saturday, 14 January 2012

Finding a Voice Part 2

January 13 2012
Throughout my life for as far as I remember
A wee small voice has accompanied me
At times it would rise to the surface
For the sake of the protection of others
often it was hushed and spoke to me of its great wisdom
Many times it came out squeaky, as if afraid to give voice to the thoughts it was pursuing
It would burst out in song, never quite hitting the right notes
But eventually it soared with my spirit and lifted me
Finally, at last I have given it wings so that my voice may be heard
No more will it be silenced
Because once set free it is limitless, insatiable and unstoppable
Let my voice now pour and gush like a stream gathering momentum as it flows to the river and on to the sea.
© Christine  Rose Linacre





Friday, 13 January 2012

Only Words - finding a Voice



Words have been my medium, pun intended, since as long as I can recall. Over the years I have composed thousands and apart from the first seven you see here  these are all that remain.

A few years before my brother Mick passed he quoted me a poem about spring, which I had written back in 1966- I just stood there open mouthed as he recited it perfectly- I should have asked him to re write it down for me but the lines which I do recall are- Do not worry do not fret, spring will return soon I bet. Ha ha I was only 11.

I dedicate these words to all those people who have touched my spirit- and may my voice grow in confidence and allow me to get back to my writing.

Namaste





Media Lies
I'd closed my eyes to the loss and pain
And focused on the blueness of the stains on the wall
That defied the medias's claims that One Coat Covers All!
I chose to forget the fun, the laughter, the adventures we had,
Crowing over bargains which were more important than a dented car
Your Kid at Christmas glow as you rendered the same song
with finer lyrics
The tent, a sanctuary with candles flickering as its victims flitted too close
The stars, the meteorite storm and the planet that appeared at 3 am
Wishbone Ash and you made me complete,
Body Mind and Soul.........

You enfolded me and nuzzled a soft kiss on my cheek and it all came flooding back
And I was drowning
And I wept for what we had had,
and what I wanted was a paint to extinguish the stain.......
But I know the media lies.

Early 1990s


The Kingfisher

At 30 I thought it quite unfair
To be expected to wait
10 more years for my life to start
Sod that!
I wanted the advantage
Easy, I thought


First came the list
A tangible one that could be measured
And duly ticked off or struck out
One by one and sometimes two by two
Like Noah in reverse


The kingfisher eluded me
and like the rest I had to wait..
That vivid flash of lightning blue
was an anti climax.
It paled into insignificance
When compared to the golden shimmer and quiver
Of a thousand strands of cobwebs
Darting and criss crossing the grass
A trap, set to trip.

It wasn't the eye that enhanced that scene
It was the simple pleasure of sharing
With someone who could also marvel at the spectacle
With awe and respect
A mutuality.
I didn't put them on my list..
The cobwebs in sunlight and the mutuality
But if I had, I would have had to wait like all the rest,
For 40.......


River Dearne Barnsley August 1995



Sculptures

 

 

I was sitting in the park yesterday

having chosen Joe's bench

against the coffee and company at the Bothy

It was cool enough  to wear a jacket

And warm enough to feel the sun in my hair.

It's an ideal vantage point.

The park falls gently down to the river

with my hill rising in the distance.

 

The trees are still full of leaves

but are replete for this year.

They have started to shed

small green acorns which were sprinkled at my feet.

I considered gathering a few

but decided to collect them another time

when the nuts are brown and lustrous,

their cups paled and detachable.

 

I felt at peace, alone yet not alone or lonely.

Two women in the distance were admiring a sculpture

and muffled voices of other explorers came from behind the hedges.

My feet didn't quite touch the ground

and I wondered whether Joe was a large man.

The plaque claims "He loved it here"

And then I wondered about you

My spirit friend.

 

You were there with me,

Your arm around my shoulders

My hand at rest on your knee

Our bodies gently inclined to each other

Head to head, hip to hip, thigh to thigh

No words were required or offered

I knew it would be like this

I know it will be like this.


Bretton Sculpture Park November 1995



Cry Wolf


The snowdrops came out a week ago
But rather than thrill they simply mewled
like wolf cubs,
a mere hint of a lie, battered by the rain
and suppressed by the smothering clouds.
The first dawn chorus stirred the memories
and the sun picked out the shoots of daffodils
and wide mouthed crocuses amazed with their vivacity.
The evening sun searched every contour of the fells,
proudly flushed, glowing and replete.
Slowly, it faded away to tease some other soul
Who claims they're happy with their celibate state.
CRY WOLF!


Barnoldswick, February 1996






REASONS


Reasons can be so unreasonable.
They start off quite simple,
a bit like Maths at school:
If a = 2 and b = 4 , what is a + b?
Easy, it’s six isn’t it?

My first reason for meeting you was elementary;
A chance to really talk with you.
Driving to meet you that day , the interlude
in my plans was an unknown quantity.
I had no formula, only a rough plan:
Meet, eat, talk and part,
Which we did ever so easily,
With laughter and smiles and a wave.

The second time the formula was clearer
and more predictable:
Meet, eat, talk , laugh, smile wave and part
In variable undetermined quantities.
Mood driven.
And we did, ever so easily,
Hand in hand in thought provoking silence,
Tentatively and shyly exploring fingers.
A brief  hug and a gentle kiss
Before the wave goodbye.

I lay here now attempting to determine the formula
The reasons why I need our next meeting
And I’m plunged into calculations beyond my own comprehension.
And it is no longer a matter of a + b = 6

Each meeting or contact adds to the formula exponentially.

Now my expectations are talk 3,laugh 4, smile 9
Hug x, hold hands y, kiss z
Are you any better at maths than I am?

June 1998


All our Mothers

She stands before me in her tartan dressing gown
The image of me at 19
She hands me the tiny bundle
The image of her when newborn
I look in awe at her perfection
And see within the scene the mirror behind us
And there they line up looking beyond
To the scene of their own creations
To an outsider it would seem like something was amiss
A time anomaly between the image and the reflection
But the reflection is as it should be
And her reflection goes back to her mother
And her mother’s mother
And her grandmother’s mother
And on and on and back and forth
Separate and separated
but never apart
united by love

Barnsley 2001, 6 years after the event

All poems © Christine Rose Linacre



Tuesday, 3 January 2012

New Beginnings 2012


Well to say last year was a challenge would be an understatement. Career wise, the highlight of the year was being invited to be Artist in Residence at Burton Agnes Hall and also being invited to the preview of the launch of the Hepworth Gallery in Wakefield .
On a personal level the year started with a diagnosis of Diabetes which I felt was such an insult to add to my existing mobility issues and the year progressed with an operation in August, a house fire in December and concluded with something way too personal to discuss here. The consequences of all of this leads me to focus very much on myself and where my career and personal life go from now on. I have never been one to allow life to get me down for too long and I am looking forward to an eventful year.
Out of all the tribulations I know I have a bright future with some exciting new things ahead of me.
Work wise I plan to focus on reaching more Galleries and I have a very big one in mind. I am also going to work on more designs  and one is about to be released via Jencel .
I have also been working in collaboration with the Garden Room Restaurant in Braithwell and I will be doing an Art Bites session there on January 17th. Follow the link for more details of that it is going to be a lovely day - I am really looking forward to it.
In February I am offering classes at The Occasional Bead Shop in conjunction with Celia of Jencel .
April 16th to 30th I am back at Burton Agnes Hall as Artist in Residence returning to be part of Sheffield Open Up with my friend Beth Eastwood for the first 2 weekends in May. Phew busy times ahead ! I have more plans for the rest of the year but will tell you about those closer to the time

Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever - Nancy Kerrigan